And then it was back down the mountain and back to real life. Adult life. City life. I was ready and refreshed to face the world and get back to the land of to-do lists and emails and errands and stimulus. And then BAM! My neck locked up due to poor regulating of my nervous system from Lyme disease.
This used to happen all the time when my nervous system was inundated with toxins as it processed treatments from Lyme disease. Getting out of bed or just moving at all was a challenge. I thought I was past these episodes. How could this happen when I just was super zen and one with nature?
I'm on the other side of it all after a solid week of down time and having to cancel work for a few days. It was rough, no doubt. But I was reminded of the role that pain and hard times have in my life. I want to share some thoughts in hopes it can encourage you to roll with the punches. Here is what I learned and was reminded of from the most recent health hiccup:
Pain fucking sucks: BUT intense pain has a way of humbling me and reconnecting me with what people experience daily. Pain has always and continues to make me more empathetic towards hurting people. Pain continues to be a catalyst that engages me with my own healing. If I felt fine all the time, I would never have the drive to find methods that heal and then be able to lead other people to deal with pain and stress effectively.
Room for improvement: I have not yet arrived with handling stress in healthy ways right out of the gate. My tendency is still to eat more sugar and junk food than I normally do and watch more t.v. than I do. I still want to numb the pain. BUT I recognize that I’m taking on healthier coping habits as well, which include deep breathing to calm the nervous system, float tank meditation, vibro-acoustic sound therapy, walks with a friends, and having grace with myself as my body recovers.
I am tenacious: Even though I don’t handle these situations as a Zen master yet, I continue to be tenacious in figuring out the issue and getting out of a tough spot. I am worth it enough to do everything I can to get better. I reflect the spirit of this quote from the Count of Monte Cristo in regard to pain: " Do your worst, and I will do mine."
Overwhelm embodies me: I am reminded that the to-do lists and constant stimulus isn’t worth getting worked up about. I need to improve on being more consumed with the gentle, nurturing, ever-present beautiful Being-ness instead of the constant angst of needing to do more. I’m working on that.
Gratefulness: As much pain I was in and annoyed that I had to cancel work, I was oddly filled with gratefulness for the slow down. I was grateful that this sort of reaction to stress and treatments don’t happen like this all the time like it used to. I was grateful to ground and just be. I was grateful my body is stronger than it used to be. I was grateful I had access to helpful therapies in Denver. I was grateful I have people in my life who could take care of me.
I’ll leave you with the a few questions:
How are you handling set backs in your life?
How are you handling stress on a daily basis?
What is one thing you can do differently/better to handle stress on a daily basis?
The reality of stress and set backs is real. But so is our access to healthy ways to handle them. If you want more tips on what you can do to live a more balanced life, shoot me an email. I love talking about these things. Be well my friends. And Just BE.